Eulogy

I thought of you today.

Memories and
Images
Swelling in my mind.
Sadness prevails.

Dark edges
And cloudy visions
Draining me for their emptiness.
Dwelling on my mistakes,
You are gone.

Absence of Dawn

Dawn doesn’t come,
And morning no longer breaks.
I sit in my solitude
Where my loneliness prevails.
There is no light for the day.
The day has ceased to exist.
Life is just one eternal darkness
That I cannot escape.
And I cannot hide from it.
For it haunts even my silence.
And silence is no longer safe.

Mother

Missing your care,
Often finding you unable
To take care of yourself.
Helpless in taking care of me.
Endless nights I waited for your
Return which never came.

Father

Frosty car windows,
Always streaked with the prints of
Tiny fingers scrawling upon the
Hardened dew in hapless design.
Each thought of you
Reminds me of what it meant to be your child.

Flashbacks

Forbidden memories lost in time
And seemingly irretrievable.
Haunted by their violence
And the terror they capture
In their kindred mystery.
Separated from certainty.

Abandoned

Alone, betrayed.
Always and needlessly
Denied my own life and existence.
Nurtured no more.
Extricated from love and dependency.

A Laughing Child Is Never Alone

Aimlessly running amok.

Light in her eyes is
An inspiration to onlookers.
Under a siege of energy and gaiety.
Hopeful, invigorating,
Never giving in.

Charming and happy isn’t always innate.
Laughter is not always part of demeanor.

Insolent, silent.

Never to be a burden.
Endlessly struggling,
Vowing to remain ever in repose.

Always wanting someone to love me.
Only to further my sense of being a nuisance.
Existing was not meant for me.